Hey lovelies!

Sorry I haven’t been posting much lately. Been busy with the cafe and the puglet and life! Ha!

I did just finish “Health At Every Size” by Linda Bacon (go buy it/read it!), but need to simmer on this awhile to gather my thoughts.

Speaking of which, I have been spending a lot of time in my head lately and while that doesn’t make for great conversation, it does help me process things and find solutions and ideas. I love solutions! But it doesn’t give me much motivation to post. And I’m pretty much made of random, so yeah.

I would love to interview some fellow fats or even do a podcast of it! I’m not so great with the technologies of the day, but can work with you on whatever. I’m open to nearly any ideas you have! Email me if you’re game: notblueatall@notblueatall.com

I do have some things happening and will be posting soon. Just waiting for things to arrive in the mail.

Today I’ve mostly been thinking about patience and humility. I do think that learning to be patient and discovering your limits is a never-ending thing and something you grow and learn throughout your life. I’ve been tested quite a bit lately. I breathe and I wait and I overcome that antsy-angsty feeling.

Humility is something I consider daily. Being a part of fat acceptance or self acceptance is a personal journey. I can speak at great length of it’s positive impact on my life. And while I think it’s a great thing to be able to look at yourself in the mirror and not have that inner-critic screaming horrible things, I think it’s so very important to remain humble, too. I do think I am awesome, but I also know that I am very fortunate and privileged and so very grateful for every little thing I have. I wouldn’t trade my life for anyone else’s. It makes me sad and/or disappointed to see people who preach about being positive and not afraid to share that radness only to then turn around and talk a bunch of negative smack about other people. I try to remain grounded and hopeful, too. I believe that there is good in each human, but sometimes I think this whole “modern living” situation makes it so very difficult to be humble. Somehow humility has become a sign of weakness and that to me is just awful.

I guess I am feeling slightly betrayed, but more so vulnerable. So please excuse me if I am a touch less posty this week. I want to collect myself and offer only what has been thought through. I know so many amazing people and every person who reaches out to me through this blog is such a gift and a delight. Thank you for reading and supporting and speaking. I do tend to speak from the heart without thinking things through at times. If I have at all offended anyone, please let me know. It is not my intention. But please, also, try to remember how lucky we all are to be alive.

*bows head*