At least it’s never been for me. I always announce to the universe, “Okay! This time I mean it! I am going to simplify my life! Simple is the new black and I am all about it!” And then, like, life happens?! The shit always seems to hit that proverbial fucking fan, man. I do my best. I try to step back and see the bigger picture. I try to gain new perspectives, but most of all I try to learn from everything that happens.

If we aren’t learning, we aren’t growing. I’ve always wanted to grow, ever since I started to live. Isn’t that human nature? No? Oh. Shit. Well? It is for me and I hope most people. I find that sharing my experiences with others helps me unburden my heart and helps others feel less “other” and more just them. It is why I write this blog. It is why I am “The Queen of TMI” and any other titles I so proudly hold (I believe a friend is working on an honorary MD on my behalf, long story).

Sharing our experiences, our stories, our love and our lives is what is human. To share and to learn from what is shared, that’s the spice of life, man! I get a real thrill out of meeting new people and having great conversations. That is my drug of choice, after good Indonesian espresso. One person’s “that old story” is another persons delight! Don’t deprive them and don’t deny yourself the opportunity to share a bit of yourself with the world. I mean, why? Fear of judgment? Ha-ha! Fuck that!

I’ve gotten some minor fall out from things I have posted on this blog. So be it. I really don’t mind. I address each issue as it arises and stay true to myself. If I have made an error, mistake or misrepresented something, not only do I want to know, but I want my readers to know. It matters to me because this blog IS ME! I didn’t think I had a voice, I thought my opinions and thoughts were invalid…but the tiniest bit of encouragement at the right time gave me the courage to step outside of my own bullshit judgments about myself and just do this thing! Sometimes, that is all it takes, for us to really find ourselves and shine!

I’m thinking of all of the wants and needs I have in my life right now, the things I really want to accomplish and attempt and experience. I can’t do those things without the love and support I get from my friends and blog readers/commenters (stop lurking, you! I see you! I love you, say hi!) and I never would have had the courage to do half the things I’ve done the last few years without that support. But the number one thing that got me through it all: Me! Plain and simple. Saying this aloud sounds crass and arrogant, but self-love is hard earned for me…for most of us!

I struggled for so long. I felt so worthless for so many years. To hear me refer to myself as “awesome” or a “bad ass” is a revolutionary act! It is celebrating my journey and my struggle. When I accept a compliment now I accept it for all who struggle and cannot see the incredible beauty that they have. I accept it and keep it with me for a rainy day, because they always come. The dark times and the tribulations of life are never far away, so we gotta enjoy what we can while we can and take what we got and just WERK!!! (or Schwerk, if you’re so inclined!)

Simplicity. I will find you. I will find a way to carry your secret in my heart and share it with the world. Why? Because I should, because I want to, because I need to and because I care. I care because I know what it feels like not to care at all and I know what it feels like to believe that the world doesn’t care about you one bit. But I do and I always will. Reach out! It IS that simple! Reach out and talk to another human. Talk to me, talk to somebody, but talk! What have you got to lose? <3

If you need an unbiased ear/shoulder/etc…hit me up: notblueatall@notblueatall.com